Motherhood

Despite having had a newborn twice before, for the first few nights after Maeve was born I found myself wondering, "How does this newborn sleep stuff work exactly?" Thankfully, over the past month the best practices for newborn sleep and handing night wakings have come back to me as I've also developed a sense of what works for Maeve. These nights of being awake so much and of helping a baby adjust to swaddling and sleeping on their back is ultimately a very short time. But when you are in it those dark hours can seem to stretch forever. So... Read more →


I wrote most of this post shortly after Maeve arrived when I was experiencing the evening blues that I'll describe here. I'm happy to report that around two weeks postpartum I started to feel my emotions even out and I'm not experiencing bluesy evenings any more. Since giving birth to Maeve I’ve found myself having a particular feeling: I feel really nostalgic for now. Can you relate to that feeling? Is there a word for it? What I’m feeling isn’t postpartum depression — I don’t have feelings of anxiety, wanting to withdraw, or other indicative symptoms — although I’m open... Read more →


When the boys are bored (plenty of opportunity for that lately) they'll often say "no" when I suggest an activity I want to do with them: Can I read you a book? Want to do a puzzle? Play a game? No, no, no. But something they are always up for is an activity they first did at my sister-in-law's house: no recipe baking! As the name implies, no recipe baking is mixing up ingredients to your heart's delight, putting it in the oven, and seeing what you get. They are thrilled by it every time! I will admit that as... Read more →


At first I titled this post "March Wrap Up" and was so confused for several seconds to see that I've already written that post. What day is it? What month is it? April 2020 was a month of significance: Ten years of marriage. Welcoming our daughter, Maeve Elizabeth. Becoming a family of five. A full month of self-isolating because of a global pandemic. At times life has felt the happiest it’s ever been but then also hard and weird. I felt a range of emotions last month from impatient waiting for Maeve; overjoyed to finally be holding her; nostalgic for... Read more →


Maeve has been with us for two (almost three) weeks. (Takes a while for a blog post to go from draft to published lately.) And of course now we can’t imagine life without her! Overall everything is going really well and Maeve is an easy baby. Or maybe we just have full confidence in what we’re doing! During the day she nurses and sleeps. Mostly I hold or wear Maeve but we’re getting better at anticipating her naps and awake time and I try hand her off to Chris too so he can have time with her too. It seems... Read more →


After making us wait for so long... Maeve Elizabeth finally joined us Sunday morning. She was so sweet to let us get a full night of sleep and then arrived quickly, in just three hours, and was born at 9 a.m. She weighed 8 lb and 10 oz and was 20.75 inches long. Her birth was so quick after we waited so long for her – it was really surreal to be holding her! Our birth at the birth center was an incredible and peaceful experience. Compared to my previous two births I felt even more present and empowered by... Read more →


We've been home as a family in self-isolation for three weeks and it feels...kind of normal? Or at least as normal as it can feel to be staying at home because of a pandemic. Which is not to say that it's always easy or that I don't feel anxiety and frustration. But I think I've wrapped my head around this being life for the foreseeable future. Arizona schools are closed through the end of the school year so this is life until school (hopefully!!) starts in August. As soon as schools started closing the internet was flooded with ideas for... Read more →